Such is Life

I really am trying to be a little bit better about keeping on top of my blog, but as someone, somewhere, might have noticed is that I'm not. I pretty much suck at this sort of thing, but I do find some pleasure in it so I want to get better at it.

On a different note, life goes on. I am rather frustrated about the fact that my parents are still bitter towards Wes. It wasn't like it was all his decision and he made me move in with him. Why do they hold it so strongly against him? It hurts my heart and my feelings to no end that the both of us can't go over for dinner, or he can't come over to meet the extended family on Thanksgiving. They are a part of my life, as is Wes, and I just want the two parts to become one. I think if I could have anything in the world, it would be that.

Moving on again. I have officially began Christmas shopping! I am rather proud of myself for beginning so early. All I have gotten is a little something for my dear younger brother, but hey, we all have to start somewhere.

The holidays are going to be particularly stressful as far as family goes. If I had my choice it would be to spend the whole day with Wes as we made our rounds from house to house. But, of course, that wont happen. So I have to choose where I'll be at what time, whose house I'll be eating Thanksgiving dinner at, where I'll be Christmas day, etc. It's a pain in the ass.

Lately I have been pretty stressed out about, not only things like family, but my jobs and money and feeling sick and getting fat and all of that fun stuff. It's hard and I hate having things like that floating around in my brain. But as soon as I get home I feel so content and comfortable that even if those things are in my brain, they don't seem to bother me so much.

I guess thats what love does, huh?

xoxo

secrets?

Tell me what you think of things like 'Postsecret' or 'GroupHug'. Things where you can openly say anything that might be weighing you down and hurting your heart without the negative repercussions. I think it is wonderful. Not only do I enjoy reading them and knowing that there are others out there who feel the same as I do about some things, but there are also people out there who are more fucked up than me. Haha. But, I must confess, I have also submitted a secret. It is a cool feeling to know that other people are going to know your secret and maybe even relate to it.

Onto other things. Life seems so wonderful right now. I am sitting here on the couch, typing away, while my dearest love is watching 'The Illusionist' and cuddling with Leo, our cat. Initially, Wes didn't really want to have Leo. He just wanted to be pet free for a little while. Seeing as how he came from a house with two dogs and three cats, I could understand that. But, it wasn't really up to us, my mom made me take him when I moved out. But now, Wes and Leo are the best of friends. Wes always scoops (as well as one can scoop up a large, tubby kitty) him up and will just hold him and pet him and play with his tail and whiskers. He considers us a little family and I am the mama and he is the papa, and Leo is our baby. Aw.

Enough for tonight. The calm and peace of the night is calling me, and I want to cuddle with my man and my baby.

<3

Lifey

I AM SO BORED AT WORK.... ALL OF THE TIME.


I just saw the very first sketches of the tattoo I will be getting. I am soooo incredibly excited. It is very beautiful. I am a bit paranoid about people stealing my idea/s, so I'll have to to think about whether or not I want to share the concept of the art with any of you..... hrm. I'll think about it.

Think About It

Did you know that humans are made out of the same materials as stars? Everything is just in a different format. Could you imagine, being accidentally being created a star instead of a person? Being wished upon, seeing the whole world day after day (or I suppose night after night), looking down on wars and lovers and children growing up and rivers drying and mountains falling.

I wish I could see all of that.

Times are strange right now. Fall is here and it's fucking freezing already. Work is wearing me out a lot more than it used to. And there seems to be so much more drama right now. People having babies and getting married, people dying and getting sick; and I am here in the middle of it, just waiting my turn for something to happen.